It all began on Saturday October 6, 1990. I was 18 and in a horrible car accident with my dad. A drunk driver hit our car we were in. Long story short I had many injuries and I got addicted to pain meds. I am sorry I have told the long version for right at 20 years now.
The important thing to me now is that I have my life back. It was a long windy journey to get here but I made it, Praise God!!
I am not sure why it took so long or why my brain wasn't able to stop the dangerous way it thought. I was in a warped way of thinking for a long time. Actually I hit "Rock Bottom" many times and it never seemed to be the bottom people talk about. After each low it would always begin again and again. I had an excuse because I had injuries marked by scars and it was pretty easy to legally get the meds. It isn't like I was lying or anything.
For me there wasn't one particular experience or day that changed things. I just stopped I would like to tell people a moment in time or something but I can't there just isn't one. The Grace of God is my only answer.
I have 2 Beautiful Girls who have helped me find my way back into the Normal everyday way of LIFE. I am so much happier and more full of joy now than I ever have been. I always feel good, I am a morning person now, I am able to do things last minute. Before I had to make sure I had what I needed in order to not feel sick so I could do things. Now all I need is me and it is so much less stressful. Someone told me once that if I could make it addicted to medicine I would be able to make it through anything. I used to think that was stupid but now I understand it. It makes since now that I am not having to continuelly (sp) plan and make sure I have enough medication and all the other things. And then when I ran out I was sick and in pain and it was miserable. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
Ok that's some of my story of where I was and where I am not now. Now I am in a Happy place and I am able to be a much better wife, mother, daughter, and friend.
Til the next~
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